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Ever since my mid term exam had ended on thursday, I went back to work on friday with whatever enthusiasm left in me, getting ready to face the challenge and whatever shit that the optimistics would call it nowadays.

During the lab meeting, I had received an sms from my dear ex boss asking me to go over during lunch. Initially I thought that something must have happened to the project that I was working on, after some thoughts, I decided to message my ex colleague to ask about it, so that I can prepare myself, ya know. But turns out my ex boss only wanted me to help him screen an applicant who had applied to his friend’s company, and that applicant turns out to be someone studying in the same school as me, and she sat just next to me during practical. This life science business is indeed too freaking small. Again, an reminder that I should be careful in this new workplace as in this business, everyone, seems to know everyone. -_-”

Anyway, I hope that I can get used to this new working environment really soon. I have met some really insensitive and stuck up bitches, if I wasnt so new in the lab, I would have gave them a good scolding already. There is this one particular girl who talk without using her brain, and I wonder how is she going to survive in this insurance industry (yes, she is leaving the lab, hurray!) if she were to keep on doing that. Almost every word coming out of her is an insult to me, and its only until her supervisor wants her to pass on her project to me then only did she start to show me some respect. Even though she had an honours (a third class honours which she had proudly declared), I am in this industry far longer than her. And there she was, insulting me that she didnt know that I am so inexperienced. -_-” It just shows how shallow she is as a person, and how arrogant she is. And not to forget, stupid. Yes, I am saying that she is stupid because she thinks that since she graduated with an honours, with me still studying part time for a degree, I must have much less experience than her. And I am thankful that my results for my experiment spoke for myself, experience doesnt comes with your certificate, my dear ignorant girl. Boy, am I glad that she is leaving the lab, I couldnt imagine working together with such an arrogant person.

The other girl that came in with me is no better than this stuck person I mentioned above. She, on the other hand, has obtain a second upper class honours, and yes, she is very stuck up and seems to competing with me in every aspect. Ah, another girl whom I do not like. I hope that the next girl who will be joining us next month will be someone whom I can hang out with. I need at least one person who is normal around in the lab!!

I do not understand why do I allow myself to feel so upset about the new working environment. I know that time will prove myself in the long run, so there is nothing that I should be afraid of, right? Since I have already decided on that, and it shall be a brand new start for me and everyone else in the lab, why on earth am I still scared? I have survived my ex boss, so why am I so afraid? I have proved to some people that I have got good techniques and stuff, why am i still scared? I am so no good with changes, no good with stress, and when everything is coming at me all at once, I freaked out.

You see, I am such a depressed person now.

On e lighter note, after my exam on thursday, I had the most carefree days of my life! I had a wonderful and sinful dinner with a great company on friday =). Ah.. What can be better than having a great dinner and company towards the end of each week… There were plenty of updates, and for me, I talk about my work.. and school (haha whats new?), and she talks about pretty much the same stuff too. I enjoyed the dinner terribly that night. The next day, the bf accompanied me to the temple to pray for the usual stuff.. and I bought two really pretty shoes with a bit of heels, not my usual style, but they are so pretty and I couldnt care less about whethere I could walk in them. Haha. We chilled a little at TCC before heading down for a movie. As I was really tired, I dozed off a bit towards the end of the movie and during our little session at TCC. =P As for today, I did my fair share of housework. I bath my pig, cut his nails, vacuum the floor, do the laundry, and clean up my room. Not without plenty of screaming and shoutings from my mum though, cant blame me, I had a really rough week. All I want to do is just stay in my bed and do nothing. =(

I have got 4 out of 5 days with school, and I pray that I have enough energy to deal with another week at work. I have to be optimistic.

Holiday

I swear that immediately after i graduate from school, I am going to quit my job and take at least a month’s break. All the work and school that its doing to me right now.. Its not worth it.

And shit, the break will only come through in another 2+ years. (Please don’t ask me to take leave during my school holiday because I have got no school holiday, the timetable is really screwed up!!)

I am in desperate need of a break, my ideal holiday would be staying in a resort along a beach, with a clear sea and fine sand. And It will only be a 5-10 mins walk from a good restaurant where I can enjoy a nice dinner and head out to a nearby pub for drinks if I am in the mood.

Gawd, please let time pass faster so that I can go for my well deserved and long overdue break.

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I am terrified

I never thought that would say this but.. after my first day of work at the new place, I have this new found desire to become a tai tai instead of a career woman. What is becoming of me? I used to think that us women must never depend on anyone but ourselves, so that you know, when worse come to worse you have no one else to rely on, you at least have your career. But after being I was introduced to the lab, I can foresee a really busy and stressful future at work, and yah, dealing with political issues, all for like a pathetic sum of money which most of it is spent on my school fees.

Perhaps I was too pampered over at my previous lab, I miss the colleague-colleague relationship I had with them. Whereas for this lab, its different, people are cold and quiet, they hardly talk, just quietly doing their own thing. And I heard some stories about what had happened to the previous girl who left and I am really not feeling too optimistic about the job. Perhaps its the stress from the coming exams that drives all these negative thoughts. I normally isnt like this. Somehow, I feel like I am standing all alone in this.

If you asked me, to be honest, I am terrified of the new lab. I am terrified of the people there, I am terrified that I wont be able to handle to school and work well. I am terrified of not having enough time to spend with my friends and family. I am really terrified.

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I Need A Proper Closure.

Thursday was my last working day with boss, and this coming Monday was my official last day in the lab. I was expecting a proper closure from him on Thursday when I passed him a gift, but he didnt give me any. Instead he just told me that I shouldn’t have got him anything because I am going to see him in the future anyway. So I just told him that my giving him the gift doesnt mean that I will not want to see him in the future or anything like that. So Boss was saying something like its a milestone and I don’t quite get what he is saying. After that short conversation, I left his office feeling weird because I feel like I needed the closure. He did say that he’ll ask me back in the future but that wont anytime soon, moreover, I will be starting at a new place on Tuesday. So yah… Maybe its just me, but it felt like boss refuse to acknowledge that I am going to have to leave the lab, and I feel like things are left hanging there.

I hope that the my new colleagues will be as nice as the ones in my lab. Sigh.. Somehow I couldn’t believe that I am starting at the new work place on tuesday. I can’t believe that its all happening this soon. =(

Monday is my last day with my (nice) colleagues and I think I will miss them lots. =( The one that I don’t like wont be coming to work. Hah. =D

Speaking of the colleague that I don’t like. Sigh, he is getting on my nerves!!!! He is ALWAYS around, standing behind my back, asking questions. What are you doing? What are you running the gel for? What is the new enzyme for? What’s this? What’s that? And not to mention his stupid “suggestions”. There are times when I appreciate his comments, but not all the time can? He just has to stick his foot into everything loh! If not when a colleague direct a question to me, he would cut into the conversation and answer it for me. There were a few times when I sarcastically asked him, “(HIS NAME), you very free hor?” Not only does he not get the hint, he continued making a nuisance out of himself by asking more questions. So thick-face can?? Imagine a 30 years old man doing that? Sometimes I do not understand why does he act like a insecure 3 years old kid. Whoever said that older man are more mature? Clearly they have not met someone like him.. Anyway, the good news is that he is leaving, leaving 2 reliable and trustable colleagues to stand by boss, which is great.

Boss had been complaining about the colleague for the past few days. It seems like boss already had plenty of issues with him but he did not voice out until lately. And apparently I wasn’t wrong about why boss was pampering him all the way. Although I do not like Boss’s way of doing things at times, I am still glad that boss finally treat him like how he deserve to be treated. Even though it took him 2.5 years.

I know I sound like I have a lot of hatred for him, I do, but fyi, I still talk to him nicely, except when he hit the threshold of my tolerance level, and that doesnt happen very often. I generally have a high threshold for idiots and I have no idea why. So, he should consider himself lucky that everyone in the lab are still polite to him even though he sometimes act like an asshole towards us. Lets see if he will still be as lucky as he is now when he left for a new lab.

Ok, enough of complaining. Time to hit my lecture notes.

=(

Sigh..

I have less than one week to the mid term exam and I have barely started my revision.

How huh?

A Fantastic End to a Monday =)

Venue: Brewerkz at Clarke Quay.

Food: Fries with some beer marinated chicken sauces and huge chunky satay sticks with cashew sauce.

Dessert: Whisky in Bread pudding with Chocolate Ice Cream. (Yummy!)

Drinks: Mango Magarita and Cinderalla.

I couldnt think of a more perfect way to end our monday blues than a good dinner and plenty of catching up with Ordinary Girl.

PS:Sorry for the lack of pictures, didnt bring camera due to the last minute meet up. Ordinary Girl misses me so much that she wants to push our wednesday meeting to today. Not I bhb one ok, she admit that to me herself de. Hah!

War

As the days get closer and closer to my start date at the new lab, I cant help but to realize that, hey, I am not that nervous at all. In fact, its almost like another normal day to work. But then again, I might still get the sweaty palms and feeling the need to impress on the actual day itself.

However, sometimes I felt really tired of explaining why am I moving to another lab, got pay increment or not, am I not happy with the my current lab, which lab are you moving to, where is that, what work will you be doing there.. then what kind of work are you doing now… where are you working now.. Thats a lot of information to tell you at one go when we hardly talk, and imagine me having to repeat whatever I have to tell them individually, and also having to filter out some confidential informations, its really very tiring leh.

Another one of my colleague is leaving, he got into a private company, and is getting quite a hefty sum of pay, considering that he has only got a diploma. So far, so good, thats good news for him, right? But the thing is, he is going into our competitor’s company and he lied to his current company about the work that he is going to do there. If I am not wrong, there is actually a conflict of interested with regards to his contract with the current company. Boss “was pissed off” (quoted by the man himself) because he found out that he had lied to him about his job scope and if he want, he can have him blacklisted from the company. And my colleague doesnt know that his future boss wanted our boss to be their future adviser. In short, the message that boss is trying to tell us is that the world is actually very small. Words gets around very quickly and who is your competitor one day, can be your friends the next day. What I do not like about my colleague is that he had bitten the hand that taught him how to fish. In short, he cant be trusted. Its been more than 2 years, and I do not like him from the day I start to work with him.

Somehow, I cant help but to feel that boss has been really generous towards that colleague of mine, even though that colleague had betrayed his trust, Boss still wrote him a beautiful testimonial. That is something that I cannot fathom. Perhaps one day, when I am older I will.

And I am really happy that not only am I learning valuable techniques from the lab, I am learning so much more from boss about philosophies, and I get to see political issues, and the way how people tried to fight them just to keep their lab surviving. Its war, and its truly an eye opener.