(Jun?) 2004 – 06th Feb 2010

To My Dearest Beloved,

Thank you for bringing so much joy and comfort to my family in the last 5+ years. You will always be loved and missed by us.

 

Rest in peace.

I love you.

I am having the WORST second year module EVER… Really should have took Genetics Course instead of Biotech.. =(

Must work hard for quiz tomorrow. 加油。。。！

Immune System Down..

..and 2 quizzes this week! =(

A Chance At Happiness

  Finally completed another module and I have officially 4 more modules to go! I think I did pretty well for the final examination! Should be able to score well even though I kinda screwed up my mid-term exam, but I think my assignments, quizzes, and the final examination should be able to make up for it.. =) I haven felt such strong sense of relief after a paper for a very long time.. Yea! Must make my money worth while!

  And for the first time, we are going to Club Med for company retreat! This is like so cool!! I never thought that there would be opportunities for overseas trip for the industry that I am in, but it happened for our institute!! I really really want to make use of this trip to loosen up a bit.. 不去白不去… since its fully paid for!!

  And this friday, the whole lab is going out as I manage to get sponsorship for all of us to go for a pretty comfortable meal! But this also mean that I have to miss a lecture, which I am quite sian about it.. Cuz afterall there’s gonna be a quiz one week after the first lecture! But I think I should still totally go for the dinner since I organised it.. Hmm…

I actually wrote something else for this post, but I ended up editing and deleting it over and over again.. private thoughts should be kept private right.. I am totally tempted to lock up my blog like BS.

Last minute revision

   Its past 5am, and I am still doing last minute revision. I have to admit, that age is really catching up with me, I can no longer memorize as much as I used to. Either that, or  it must be due to the lack of sleep. I can’t wait for the day when I’ll be totally free from the night classes, late nights due to rushing of assignments and exam stress. But I have no doubt in my mind that I will be committing myself to a new hobby after I am free from school. Argh I cant wait. 14 hours to exam. Must jiayou!

  Shall have a proper update after my exam. =)

  

Random random post

Estimated shopping damage for the past 2 weeks: $1000!

BF’s new spec as his bday pressie. Mum’s haircut and rebonding. My haircut and hair treatment. Levis jean, wallet and new shirt for my brother. HP battary. Top up ezlink card for my brother and I. Dinners.

Gee, I hardly spend any of that money on myself. But its ok, I feel good splurging on the people I love. Its worth it. =D

Damn, I still have 3 Xmas exchange party to go to. Need to get pressies! Ex boss’s. My closest friends’. BF’s childhood friends’.

School work: Modeling Assignment. Lab report. Logbook. So stressful!

Gotta soon study for my final exam too!

Despite the above complaints, this month has got to be the least stressful month of the year! I love december! It seems like everything is slowing down. Time for me to relax and breathe. =)

A deep breathe is all I need to get me through a day.

Things to be happy about:

• Lecturer told the class that I did well for my presentation;
• Colleague told me that I have been doing well, in fact, better than expected.

 But why do I still feel like I am hanging by a thread?

Was it because:

• I can only answer 2 out of 4 questions that the lecturer had asked during Q&A?
• My co-workers had been expecting me to break down sooner or later under all the pressure from my school work, and no one have expect me to last til now?

No matter what it is, I am truly not convinced at all when people try to tell me how well I have been doing. Because I know that its not all me. I know that some of my co-workers have been helping me lightening up my workload lately. Perhaps my supervisors realised how overwhelmed I am, and in return for their understanding, I made damn sure that all my results are nothing but accurate. I know that I cannot afford any mistakes on my side no matter how tired I am, because just one mistake from my side would cost someone else’s 3 months’ work to literally go down the drain. How can I afford that? Despite feeling really shitty about my situations, I do feel lucky in some ways, and for that, I am grateful.

To BS, whom I know is working extreeeeeeeeeemingly hard for her honours year, continue to work your hardest for your last year! It will all be over before we know it!

Contemplating

Its been too long since I had blog. I realise that I do not blog often these days.  Hence it surprises me to receive comments from passerbys telling me that they like my entries. Though these comments do not come in often, but I can’t help but to feel amused when I got them, because all I wrote here are either complaints, depressing or really mundane stuff. I do not talk about my shopping trips, I do not talk about all the exciting places I had been too, nothing of all those but the boring life of a full time worker cum a part time student, which is hardly anything worth reading in the first place. But I wrote it as it serve as a outlet for me to vent my frustrations, its a place where I try conclude what little lessons that I had learnt from. Yes, I would have understand why my friends would like to read my entries as they will want to know whats going on with my life. But never would I have expect passerbys to drop by and leave a comment telling me that they like what I wrote. I guess its kinda flattering, but it does seem a little unreal to me. Unreal because it doesnt make sense to me, but not that I am complaining about it.. Like I said.. its flattering to receive such comments (its good for the ego I guess *wink*), they never fail to make my day.

So.. I am kind of contemplating whether to make this blog a private one. Something like BS’s. Only a few close friends will gain access to it. Perhaps its only then will I be able to let out more of me on this blog then. There are stuff I would like to bitch about at work, but knowing how the internet work these days, its probably not safe. Potential employers googling your name to find out more about you, nosey gossipers raiding through your facebook and friendster trying to get their latest materials.. Even though I had been keeping my anonymity here, but its always better to be safe than sorry. Yes, in case you haven’t already known, I am that pessimistic.

Anyway, I find that its terribly unfair to have employers judging their candidates from what they have deduced from the net. I am not sure if they know that people do have different personalities on and off the net. Do not be fooled when your boss asked you about your weekend, you’d be surprise by how much your boss had already known the answer to that. I was out with a group of friends on a friday night at a gay pub, and they forbid any pictures taken that night to be loaded up onto facebook, because their boss checks through everyone of their facebook from time to time. From what I found out, apparently their boss is concerned about his employers’ night life as he is worried that it may affect their performance at work the next day. They are not even spared from their boss’s watchful eyes on a weekend! Atrocious right? I know. Another shocking story: One of my acquaintance got sack with immediate effect when his boss found out that he had signed up at a adult finder website. Funny thing is, he signed up in the comfort of his own home, using his private email on a weekend. And yet his boss had his way of finding that out the very next day and fired him. Reason given was that the boss find what he did disturbing, that he is afraid that it will bring down his company’s reputation if word got out. Like hello?? Have’nt the boss visited any porno website in his life? Not that I encourage people visiting porno website, but I do think that its normal for people to have a life outside work. No, normal is an understatment. Its our right to have a life outside work. If those employers had used their time more wisely (like working for their company) instead of cyber stalking their employees (which I am positive that even their very own mother would not have done just to see what their child was been up to when they are out), I am sure that the company would have perform much much better. 

Imagine your boss surfing through your facebook and blog, reading your complaints at work.. It makes you feel sick to the core, doesnt it?

Sigh, what a sick world we live in…

Random Quickies

• I had to reboot my ipod twice because of one corrupted song. But I am really glad to have uploaded new songs into my ipod cause I am getting sick of listening to the same old songs over and over.

• It takes about 1 freaking hour to convert one movie for the ipod. Why so troublesome?

• The 2 new guys next to the lab are seriously cute! Kinda sad that one of them is married though.. =( But oh well, having those eye candies around really does brighten our day! =D

• Need to remind self to buy baby carrots for my guinea pig.

• My colleagues got me a pet name that embarrass me so much that I cringed everytime I hear it. Today I hear people from other labs calling me by the pet name. FML.

• I hate doing troubleshooting for my genotypings.

• Last friday, I killed so many mice by breaking their spine that I had a nightmare that night and only fall asleep at 6am. I was then late for my class which starts at 2pm and had to spend 16 bucks on cab. FML twice.

• Many of its tails came off when I tried to break their spine. I think I should just stick to CO2 treatment as I still can’t get over it. I feel really sorry doing it and I hope that I will not have to do so much killing in my next job.

F.M.L.

Live life

I came across this on the net and it is making so much sense to me right now.

 

“A journey is a person in itself; no two are alike. And all plans, safeguards, policing, and coercion are fruitless. We find that after years of struggle that we do not take a trip; a trip takes us.“ - John Steinbeck

 

Its true you know. We can worry and plan about everything in our life for all we want. But at the end of the day, what do we get out of it? Nothing. So, why not just live life, make the best out of it and have a blast?  I would love to do that, but unfortunately I do not own my life, my commitments own it for now.

You know, after I am done with all my studying, I will definitely want to slow down and live life for awhile. There are so much things in life that I am missing out because of my commitments. It will be great if I can travel with a close buddy to some place cool, just to go for some sight-seeing, see how other people lead their lives, and hopefully make friends with the locals. I am sure that that will do me more good instead of all the usual shopping and eating routine that most of us have in mind when we chose our destination for travelling =).

Until then, I have to first survive through this 14 months and then its hello <insert some exotic place which I have yet to decide>! But first thing first, I have to get back to my studying for an exam today. Wish me luck!