I know it has been way too long since I last blog. I can’t even remember my user ID and password. Had to request a change for password before I can finally log in.
I dont think anyone still read my blog. But its ok, I have no idea what came over me, I am suppose to be writing a report that is due this coming Monday. But here I am, looking for anything else to do but writing the damn report. Yes, I know that I mentioned in my previous post that I am finally free from school. Guess what, I enrolled myself into the honours program.
I do not know if I have throughly thought it through before enrolling myself into the honours course. I mean, I can never know if this is the right path for me unless I tried, right? So I decided to take up this opportunity and enrol myself into a full time honours program. And now I am like, F***, what was I thinking??!!
I met up with my co-supervisor 2 days ago and this is what he told me:
“How can you handle 40 hours of paid work and 40 hours of honours work (a week), and still expect to do well for your honours?”"
“I have a feeling that you are so much better than you seem. Who knows, you may be a really good post-doc someday.”
He looked really upset to find out that I am actually doing a full time job while juggling my honours course. I honestly thought he knew about it, it was never my intention to keep this from him. Every now and then, I can hear him mumbling about having to bring this up to the head of school. It was a tough one hour chat, more for my lecturer than for me. He has to find out how am I holding up, if I am talking enough to my main supervisor (my boss), and if I am progressing alright for my project.
I am seriously grateful to have such a dedicated co-supervisor to help me with my honours project. I said very little most of the time (due to the lack of sleep, and most of the time I do not know half of the things I am doing), and I am always amused by the big picture he manage to form from what little information I had given him. He is such an experience supervisor, I seriously do not know what will become of me if not for him. There is a REALLY high chance that I could flank this thing!
He advise me to quit this lab and start my honours project else where. Anyone else would have jump at this opportunity, right? I do not know what is holding me back still. All I told my supervisor is that I do not wish to give up on this project, afterall, I have already spend so much time on it. I never know I am this stubborn until now. Too stubborn for my own good.
Hai, I hope I will be able to survive this just like how I survive doing a full time degree course while holding a full time job. Pray for me. Please.
